Fertility and reaching your dreams

I have to remember to post everyday (my goal) cause stuff happens and then i tend to forget about it for a few days when I actually meant to post it up. ANYWHO, lol

So today, i had my annual (only i was long over due, so it was more than an annual lol) gynecological exam or Pap Smear for those who are more inclined. I looked up my new doc online and she got rave reviews so I figured why not. Ladies....., come in close for a second....what IS it about us that we gotta PREPARE for the gyno like we do? Yes, i did everything, made sure my legs were freshly shaved, made sure the star of the day was freshly groomed, lol, diligently held my pee just in case they wanted me to pee in a cup (some gynos do the requisite pregnancy test, whether you think you're pregnant or not) and even did the "Fold my clothes neatly on the chair" thing when it was time to change into the gown, lol. I just think its funny the lengths us women go through to make sure we and everyone else involved are comfortable, lol.

Thankfully, this gyno was just as advertised, professional, prompt, quick even (the actual pap smear lasted less than 60 seconds, i tell you!) and thorough. She complimented my previous doctor's good surgical skills on my breast lumpectomy scars (yes, ladies continue to do your self breast exams PLEASE) and she even had warmed instruments which was thoughtful.

The ONLY thing i didnt appreciate, though i figure she had to mention it, was that she gave me the whole "You're turning 31 next month, so don't wait too long to have babies because fertility declines as we age...yatta yatta yatta" SIGH. Like, really?! LAWD. Way to ease on the pressure, Doc. *insert sarcastic thumbs up here*


Hubby and I of COURSE want kids. It doesn't make it any easier that Ive essentially been baby lusting since, oh about, 2006 or so and now ALL of our peers are up and getting pregnant. But there is a little thing called financial stability that we absolutely will NOT budge on. And right now with hubby looking for work, us paying down debt and me being the ONLY source of regular income in the household, having a baby seems like THE most irresponsible thing we could do. To us, it would be like someone on food stamps going out and buying a Lexus. Only the Lexus gets more and more expensive as time goes on. i dunno, bad analogy, but ya'll know what I mean. But I didn't and I wasn't going to break that down to Doc, i just nodded my head and let her know that I understood.

Are we PURPOSEFULLY tryna wait until my fertility is about gone?! NO, we AREN'T tryna wait at all! If we had the funds/financial security right now, I think we'd go for it, cause i mean, im about to turn 31 and hubby will turn 34 in March. Yea, he is entering his mid 30's now. I hope that this birthday hits him hard, but it probably won't, lol. Hubby has a tainch (yes, a TAINCH, thas country for a little bit lol) of baby fever, he really gets it when he sees a cute lil kid on tv or even in real life nearby. But i think he'll REALLY get it when his best friend and his wife finally conceive. They've told hubby that they are planning to start trying in the next year. But see, they are THE PICTURE of financial stability. They have a house, the husband is a dentist and the wife works in hospital admin, they have a beautifully affordable house here in Texas and the only debt besides their house is their student loans. Look, i know I need to quit counting folks money and concentrate on my own. Hubby and I are trying...but lawd, i dunno. At this rate it feels like we'll never get to that point. Hubby does have a good idea about selling his Bronco and then using the funds to get us ahead and then buying a cheaper reliable car. Im a little skeptical, but if he feels its a good move, I trust him. And frankly, i DONT want to be in this financial position this time next year (and ive made moves to help ensure this).

Ideally, i want to start trying to conceive when i have enough passive income from my real estate biz to at least cover rent and utilities. That would also mean we would have a cushion in the bank and be in good position to get a house to live in of our own, if we so choose (and right now, im good, we LOVE our apartment, but we know babies may not lol). I also would like a dog first and for a long time i had my heart set on a purebred Airedale, but ive been slowly trying to let go of that idea, because i want hubby to be involved in choosing the dog as well, so im thinking towards the end of this year, we may roll down to our local rescue and see what's up.

Anyway, this post is entirely too long and i still havent covered everything I wanted to cover (is it cool to post more than once a day...do people get annoyed by that? hmmm...), but I think i'll stop here.

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