Hey there

Im up really late, but im on vacation so its cool lol. At any rate, im still kicking over here tho sadly nothin much has changed since my almost year old last update. Still broke, still no babies, still working, etc etc etc.

But now things are a slightly different.

I'm fed up with waiting. Im sick and tired of being sick and tired.

So I have given myself a deadline. TTCing by July 2012 or not at all. PERIOD. So basically, im giving myself the next 12 months to get my act together. And this can start tomorrow if I want to as I have a networking event to attend so that I can get the contacts I need to get my biz jumping.

Why this new resolve seeing as ive been baby lusting since 2006?

Well, its like this. I am slowly realizing that the life im living while is nice, is not the life I want. PERIOD. And to get the life I want, im gonna have to get uncomfortable. Im comfortable and I cant remain comfortable to bring about change.

Im tired of watching all my peers (and younger) creating the families they want. Cute lil babies left and right taunt me when i log onto my Facebook. My husband is pretty babyfied right now thanks to his SAHD friends who have been egging him on. His best friend and his wife still arent pregnant yet (that we know of), but im sure once that happens, all reproductive hell will break loose lol.

Im just tired. And being on this vacation for the last week has shown me just how tired ive become. Living my life the way I want to day to day has been darn near orgasmic. I cant believe how much better I feel and how much stuff I have the energy to do now that im home instead of up in a cold, stressful office all day. Not say that the stress factor wont rise at home once i get my biz going, but it will be MY stress. The stress that will get me free. And that I can and will live with, naamean?

Anywho, so yea...July 2012..I plan to be be baby dancing with the hubster. If he had his way, we'd baby dance now and he'd be SAHD galore, but, I cannt see myself leaving my baby all day, even if they are home with hubby (no offense to the WOHM's out there, ya'll rock!).

Now I just have to work backwards. Ive made a list of things that need to happen between now and July 2012, so that's a good starting point. Making it to this networking event tomorrow night is the next. Sigh, pray for me ya'll.

Baby steps, right? Heh. Right!